It kills

"You don't die from a broken heart

you only wish you did."

It's heart break season.

The term we have dubbed as an excuse for the number of broken hearts and broken relationships in a given time. There's no specific month nor date. This sad season creeps up and steals happiness from all A list couples we know. And by A lister couples, I mean those who are in a relationship for more than 2 years and more. This season doesn't stay all year round though but it does catch people off guard.

I received a text from a friend and it somehow made me feel sad. Affected really, I'm not much of a sentimental person but just imagining the one who made this text, dude, the person must have serious issues. It's beautiful in a twisted way.

"Loving someone who can't love you back is like being comatosed.. Comfortably lying but unconsciously bleeding... safely sleeping but silently hurting... continuously breathing yet slowly dying."

I've had my share of heart aches in the past. I've been a battered girl friend, I admit to that. And like any other person who can relate to me when asked, why don't you leave him? I reply, because I love him. I know it's a dumb answer but you can't judge a person when he or she has chosen to place the heart above logic.

The first guy I fell head over heels for dumped me for a girl with thick eyebrows. I'm not saying that to be mean, it's how I remember people. I picture the most memorable feature they have. This guy leaves me through text and I saw him holding hands with the thick eye browed girl at the mall a few days after. The second guy turned out to be over bearing, over protective, and brutal. He accused me of having a relationship with another guy. When our relationship ended, he posted pictures in his account with other girls on night outs I never knew about.

These are the guys I've opened my world to, which I rarely do by the way, and they ended up disappointing me. All I ever wanted was to have a guy who would give his heart in exchange for mine. And they couldn't do that. How then can you force someone to love you back? Could you really do that? 

To have someone you love not love you back is one of the most painful experiences you will have in your life. Rejection hurts like hell. And when this happens, you will get upset and depressed. You'll crawl into a ball and cry like a baby. You'll wonder what went wrong along the way. In the end, the best thing you can do is to just let go.

I'd rather be alone and heart broken than hog someone's happiness in order to make myself feel better.

~myeviltwin