Bitter sweet

And we give you a grade of re-oral.

"Figures. The paper wasn't done. It lacked the necessary information to be proven worthy of a passing grade."

To create a thesis paper is one of the major highlights in college. It somehow represents how much knowledge you have gained in your 4 or more years in the course you have taken. An oral presentation of your thesis paper is the make it or break it moment wherein you will find out, given that you passed all your other subjects too, that you will join your ceremonial rites for graduation. And here I am, working my ass off to prove that I am worthy to be called a soon to be graduate.

The oral presentation did not go all too well. And yes, my partner in the process got all distraught and heart broken. I, for one, do not see it as something negative. It became an inspiration to push myself forward. The fight for me wasn't over yet. People expected me to be sad at that point. But seriously, how can you be sad when an opportunity was given to make better what you've made and of course, to make better your whole being?

I've recently accepted the fact that failure is indeed a part of life. The feeling, to put it in lay man's term, sucks. And there are times when you just want to give up and run for the hills. But then again, to fail is the most important aspect in learning. It teaches one a lot of values that include, maintaining the atmosphere of positivity, to understand that there is and will always be room for improvement. It teaches one to be humble, to be inspired, to be challenged. Most importantly, it teaches one that you are not perfect. There are some people though that you feel expect you to be perfect and believe me, these are the kind of people that are being bullied to be perfect too themselves. The trick is to hold true on what you can give, you may not be perfect but hell, it doesn't stop you to become the best that you can be.

Failure has a lot of definitions. It's either you see it as something negative or something positive. For others, it means: This is the end. Others say: I simply don't care anymore. For me, failure simply means: Get off your effin' ass, you are better than this and you know it. When it seems as though a situation is too hard to handle, I find it best to remember that everything has a meaning. And that in every sticky situation there is always a way out. 

Failure is not the result of the build up of mistakes you have done. Mistakes are as inevitable as change itself. And the mistakes you make in life are the foundations of the better person you are now and the better person you will become in the future. Failure then is the result of giving up without even trying, without risking to make a mistake.

If you are afraid to commit a mistake or to be imperfect, which you already are in the first place, I feel sorry for you my friend. The brave may not live forever but the cautious do not live at all.

~myeviltwin