Make a choice

I am torn.

Matthew 6:24 says, you cannot serve two masters. Although I do not follow much of what is written in the bible or actually read it to begin with, I can attest that not in all things this is applicable. I can do my homework while listening to music. I can take a call and write down a ticket. I can eat and watch television at the same time. The term is called human multitasking to be exact. It is the ability of a person to perform more than one task at the same time.

However, there is one thing that ultimately becomes a contradiction to this. Love. Sure, you can love a family member and a special someone at the same time, you can have two boyfriends or two girlfriends, have more than one best friend perhaps. But then, someone has to be closer to your heart in all those people you claim to love. I don't believe in people who say, I love them all equally. That's an answer they use as a means of hiding what they really feel because people hate having to choose one thing over the other. We all want everything that makes us happy. Sometimes we want things that are not meant for us. We still work in order to gain it though we know it's only for a moment's time of happiness.

Contentment. I ask for this value each time I pray, which truthfully is never often. It's when you have contentment, you feel most happy in what you have. You don't just simply settle for something or someone. You embrace what you've got and feel like you're the luckiest being in the world for having attained that gift, whether it be in the form of something material, or in the form of an abstract feeling like the love of a person. 

I don't know the exact time span or what to do in order to have that. I guess it'll just come to a person. It'll be be the time when you stop asking for the latest gadgets or what's in trend. And maybe, when a person actually stops thinking, I wish I had two hearts to love you and another.

~myeviltwin